when u say u love me.

在茫茫人海中能找到几次自己的知己？自己认为最疼爱的伴侣？就算现在在一起，你能坚决地说出来他是你的唯一？哈哈。虽然以上几点我都不能给与正确的答案，但就当她在说爱我的那一刻起，我感觉真的很开心，幸福。^^

毕竟我们在一起也有一段时间了。彼此都因为对方的影响而改变了很多。他让我感觉自己变得不一样了。变得要有想法，主见，还要帮她想办法。哈哈。真地很开心。有你，真的很快乐。真地要谢谢你哦，让我知道了自己人生的方向。我会继续努力，就因为你是我的原动力。我爱你。

你是黑洞还是太阳？

你认为自己是个黑洞，还是太阳呢？
黑洞，吞噬所有东西好不保留。
有两面，与其是贪心，想把所有的东西都拿走。
还是谦虚，把东西往内收。维持收敛的态度？
太阳，是信心的象征。勇于展现自己最好的一面。

理智上，我们都想成为太阳。但有没有想过，如果太阳发出的光芒太强，太热？是否会引起人们的负面影响？作为太阳，要拥有适当热能。可别把别人烧死了哦，自己却不知道。

自信，自大。。。

其实这两个字要说他们是一体的，也不对。说他们是一起的，也不对。有谁能来跟我解释一下他们真正的区别？唉，人必须要有足够的自信来表现出自己更好的一面。但是问题来了，所谓的足够又要怎么定义呢？如何拿捏才是最好的？太少显得害羞，太多就被称为是自大了。大自然当中，原本一切都是平衡的。什么都不能多或少。不然大自然的规律就会被破坏。导致天灾人祸。相同的定律引用在人的性格和行为上，其实是可想而知的。虽然我知道，做人是不该太在意别人的说法，但又有几个人能真正做到这点？
以前曾经听过人会被金钱，名誉和权利蒙蔽了自己。我则看到了真正的例子。袖手旁观？伸出援手？

人生充满了喜怒哀乐，也包含着欺骗。

在我们的人生中，自己认为平淡的生活其实从中包含了很多事情。我们肉眼看不见并不代表我们不知道。虽然有人会刻意隐瞒，但不知道为什么最后还是会被揭发。正所谓“纸是包不住火？”我开始觉得自己是个单纯的人，像个小孩。别人说什么我都相信，从来不去怀疑。这不就是朋友之中该有的心态吗？就算他每天跟你相处，但也有东西是你会被隐瞒的。我为这种所作所为感到悲哀。哎，真地需要这样？为了保护自己的名誉，来骗朋友？肤浅啊。朋友是什么？是能一起共患难，有工作就一起分享，偷东西就一起吃的伙伴。但现在，已经没有往日的欢笑，朋友在各自的背后互相刺痛对方，希望他问的东西也不理不睬了。现实慢慢把我们包装起来，也把我们的心包装起来。从此不再联系。

真地希望人们不要被暂时的快乐遮住了双眼，不然到最后可是会一无所有的。希望你早点回头是岸。

现实？义气？

在我们的生活当中，真的有很多东西难以抉择。
当人们面临这样的困境时，你会怎么做？在思考很久对吧？最后还是找不到一个满意的结论。
论义气，那谁能告诉告诉我，义气的定义是什么？
人们常常会自我矛盾，不是没有原因的。而我习惯在面临这样的问题时，跟着心态做选择。
即使做错了，也是我自己的选择。
我曾听过一句话，当人家对我们好时，我们不会想到感激。但当别人对我们不够好时，我们即刻就反应出来。我知道我自己本身也是这样，但还真是没办法改变。能否说这是人的本性？只能尽量克制自己吧。

在这里，我想祝我兄弟比赛成功，超群出众！ 加油吧。

我毁了个巨人的梦

现在我才知道，原来害人家的梦想破碎是那么痛苦的。我真的不想的，真的。。。
我自己心里也感到非常的内疚，而且成绩真地不是很好。他曾说过要打进决赛的，但是现在却。。。唉，我真的很自责。就因为我打着决赛，而舍弃了另一场比赛。
听到那些拉拉队说的话看来，他真地很失望。我真的不知道该怎么做了。。。
第一次觉得，自己赢了却不会感到开心。唉，怎么办？

为知惊人的恐怖，失去致爱

因为最近的报道，让我知道了人生中最重要的事情，和人生中最重要的东西。
连环车祸，汽车失控，导致多人丧命。这种事情，最近在报纸上都一直出现。心里真地为那些往生的人们感到不值。今天，占报纸的3页之多！全都是记者访问死者家属所写的报道。唉，人生有多少不如意，谁知道？哪怕下一分钟会发生什么事都不知道。在副刊中也有提到，要多照顾自己的父母。真地，在这个社会，谁还会多关心自己的父母？能多花点时间陪他们？他们是否怕孤单？整天一个人呆在家？没事情做？曾几何时我们做儿子，女儿的去留意这些重要的事情了？好好珍惜自己的家人吧。疼爱他们，他们也是需要我们的。
我曾在广播频道里听到这句话：“我们担心的是今天能赚多少钱回家，而他们（父母）担心的是儿女是否健康。我们担心的是能给他们多少家用，而他们却担心我们是否有回家吃饭。”
从这两句话当中，我真地深深领悟到父母的角度和想法。他们爱我们。不要等到我们什么都不能做了再来后悔。来不及了。（感慨中）

我回来了，我走了。

因为上课的关系，我必须提早一个星期从我老家JB赶回KL。
这次会有点遗憾和依依不舍。不知道为什么，感觉很不好受。明明是跟以前一样，放假回去，之后就回来上课，但这种感觉倒是第一次。可能是因为终于感觉到了家庭，家人的真正重要性吧。而遗憾呢，就是我这个不孝子，回到家里那么多天，爸爸的忙倒是没帮上。唉~真地有时候很讨厌自己。明明是个儿子，但却没帮上老爸的忙。每天看他从早忙到晚，真的很替他担心。我却只坐在家里看电视。太荒唐了吧？老爸因为聘请了名新的员工，所以不想我做跟班。但他还是做到很晚。辛苦你了，老爸。这次的假期真地很不一样，我把多数的时间都给了家人，之后就到朋友啦。
说真的，我倒是第一次跟老妈单独吃早餐，感觉真地很不错。老妈怕我饿着似的，死命叫我叫东西吃。哈哈。谢啦，下次我请！我们两母子就这样在“豪友”吃了一个多小时的早餐。真地很开心。
不只如此，这次假期回去还遇到了她。真是好久不见，她过得真地很好。我也很为他感到高兴。真地很难得我们会出来见面，毕竟分隔两地，他在新加坡，我们在新山，所以能见面的次数真地很少。的却，当我看到她时真地吓到了。真是谢谢你给了我个惊喜，看见你真的很开心。我们还去唱K，喝茶，聊天到最后回家。那个熟惜的路口，公寓。哈哈~提起了我的回忆地说。我可是一点都没忘记呢！你在我心中的地位还是一样没变哦。祝你过得幸福。
人都回来了，也要开始自己该做的事情咯。开始再为将来努力！休息充电够了，是时候冲刺了！我来咯！

holiday day 1 and 2...

normally i m suppose to write my blog in mandarin. but this time,due to my home pc problem, i think write in english is better.

To Auntie
ok,lets talk abt my 1st holiday when i reach malacca. this is a... wat m i suppose to say... a complicated day that i hav. becos i go onli a place, but saw a lot of things in a time.
at 1st, my main purpose is to visit my auntie. she get sick then need to stay at hospital for treatment. she is suffer on breast cancer. is a very cruel illness that i know among all those disease. at the moment i look at my auntie,im shock. all of her hair become white, n few. is not able to get up becos of those pipes n needles that put on her hands n any where. but she stil ok n able to sit straight n chit chat to us. she is been there for weeks. heard from dad, on the 1st day when she get in, she feel very uncomfortable n pain. not able to eat well even go to toilet. == haiz~ my heart feel pain for her when i look at her. hers daughter n son always come n look after her, take care of everything. thats the 1st thing i saw. FILIAL. during the conversation, she said: "they loved me far more then i love them,becos of me they cant even sleep well at nite."she said it slowly but i know she is letting hers children had the hard time. and she dont like this kinda torture. but to me, taking care of our parent of cos is our main duty! no matter how tired we r, we mus take good care of them. they r doin their job. the time was HARI RAYA, so we can c a lot of malay ppl dress nicely n came n vicit their relative who r in the hospital. a nanny who is stay beside my auntie is being visit by her daughter. them keep accompany her all the time. i feel touch on their move. no matter who we r, the manner that we treat our elder is always the same. n we r the same. auntie cant eat those "solid" food. she jus can simply eat those porriege that r easy to chew. and that was bein cook by uncle. at the beginning she dont wanna eat becos she didnt get enough sleep. but after sis n bro told her to eat a bit, then she reli start to eat. she love me verymuch during the pass when i was a little kid. to my, is hard to take it. dont talk abt my mum. auntie u wil get well sooner or later. i know tat,everyone loves u know tat.

To Grandma,
she is not my real grandma. but is my best friends grandma. she treat us like the real family. our relationship jus like others elder n younger. i dont hav a grandma now, becos my grandma pass away when i was 10. so now i m very admire those ppl who had grandparents. my best friend, KIM, his sis is abt to open a new shop besides their family factory. they lack of man power on those preparation n tidy on stocks. tat day, we r gonna help them on preparing. our family relationship is good enough for tat. that was a good place wif full furnish, upstair is selling lights, downstair is selling those accesories. we feel glad for her. but when we go in, we c grandma standing at the front door. wif an injuroies on hers face. abt half of her face is balck. i was shock. i ask kim wats happenning, then i know she is knock by a motor. then the driver ran away. damn it! those bastards! n grandma s eyes get hurt during the accident. when i greeting to her, she says that i m affraid to c her becos of her ugly face? omg~ of cos not! my dear granny. i feel hard for u. she is happy to c me too. during the work time, grandma keep telling kim to sent her back home. but becos hers eyes stil havent fully recover yet, so they decide to let her stay. mayb go for clinic for another check up. but she insist wanna go back. finally, kim cant fight wif grandma. fetch her back. grandma take good care of urself yeah. i wil go n visit u often.

To Myself.
i jus simply wanna let my favourite on my blog.

一切都到一段落。

经过漫长的奋斗岁月，终于结束了。

这场打了差不多两个星期的战争，在今天12点15分宣告完毕！全体会计部同学在此欢呼！

真地很辛苦呢.>< 连续两个星期苦读，对于我这个大懒虫到是初体验。 不过辛苦的值得！虽然知道自己的成绩不会很优异，但是我可是使劲浑身解数来应战了哦。 虽然大家都深受重伤，但至少都没辜负自己。 我本身最喜欢先苦后甜，所以呢~假期当然是最甜的啦！哈哈~终于能继续打球了。 对不起啦，球鞋，好久没动你了。明天就带你去走走。爽啦！ 在温书的同时，还学到了不少东西地说。

知己知彼，百战百胜！

这是我所学到的最重要的东西。有时候真地要知道自己到底是怎样的人，从这个出发点来改善自己明显容易得多。而且成果证明一切，等成绩出炉后就知道自己的缺点曝露在哪里了。

每天都听senior说，advance不好读吖。

一直都不以为意，哪里知道。。。够够力！

看着吧！我的目标不会因为这样而降低！反而会升高！

奉劝那些有心而力不足的同学们，加把劲吧！

了解自己，改善自己，超越自己！



放假咯！^^

终于。。。

还剩一张科目！我就能回去看我亲爱的父母们啦！
这段时间真地是辛苦你了。老爸~
你儿子我啊~每天都在为了不让交了的学费浪费而努力呢。><
朋友都说我样子都有点不好，白发也多了。（只是一点点）
哈哈~3科就能把我折磨成这样，看来下个学期有更早做准备才行。
别人读书，我也读书。怎么我就读成这个样子？ 累到~
不过还好目标是永远放在前面的，所以就不会缺乏动力。
方法对于每个人，他们有他们的见解。
我呢，就可能是从报纸上学来的吧。^^
我的师傅可是著名的爱迪生哦！
看了他的文章，真的让我搞明白了自己该做什么，用什么方法，心态来做。
我以前真地太小孩子了。少壮不努力，老大徒伤悲。 这是老爸一直警惕我的话。
在此宣布：蔡家夫妇注意！蔡家夫妇注意！请你们在advance时再到学院来。
我不会让你失望的。^^ 加油吧！

朋友篇
其实，我周遭有很多事情发生在身边的朋友群里。说真地，每个人的想法是不同的。
人就会用个人的判断思考去决定，计划他们将来要做的事。
或许是我想法肤浅，所以觉得该做的事情应该专著在目前的-学业。很多人说自己以后要成为伟人，名人，和有钱人。但是他们的行为举止都让我觉得不太对。不知道为什么，我不是倒吃干醋，只是觉得身为朋友，应不应该提醒下他们？很多都是因为尝到了好处，所以他们的视线已经被名誉憧憬所掩盖。导致他们看不清楚方向。唉~有的发展固然是好。但是总觉得搞清楚自己是谁，该做的是什么，我觉得才是最重要的。想要成为伟人，达成目标的同时，是否应该先看清楚你做好准备了没？是时候了没？俗语说，凡是讲求天时，地利，人和。朋友吖~希望你早日从迷惘里解脱吧。

一段特别的假期

临走前来张大合照！

我们大概凌晨五点多到达那里，天还没亮就在玩真心话大冒险。赞啦！

这是我们拼了命抓回来的“战利品”。

跟了老爸几年的大罗里。

自从CAMERON HIGHLAND 结束之后，我就在KL休息一天后搭巴士回老家。在KL的那一天我早已计划好在JB所要做的事情。第一就是帮忙老爸工作。第二呢，就是练拳啦。

先来谈谈练拳，对刚入行的我来说，泰拳是一种很考胆量的一种武术。也是我第一个接触的武术运动。真的非常喜欢。在那里，我还认识了很多的朋友，个个都是高手耶！练习不只是锻炼了我的体能，也同时锻炼了自己的意志和胆量。真的和其他的运动有很大的不同，不论是在肺活量或者是体力方面，真的消耗比其他运动来的大。真的是挑战性极高的运动。每天呢，我就会安排在吃了晚饭后练拳，之后便喝茶，回家睡觉。在某次练习时，我的意志被挑拨了。而且是在跟教练对打的时候。那是我的心情是非常之生气地。也不停的埋怨她在旁一直不断的刺激我。就因此。。。我倒下了。我不是因为被打得站不起来，也不是因为自己的体力透支而倒下。而是那些话让我倒下。因为她，让我知道了意志对于一名拳手来说是多么的重要。 不论你有多好的技术，体能，只要你的意志不坚定，随时会因为这样而败北。让自己冷静下来后，才看清楚愤怒背后的事实。其实那些自己所埋怨的不满，都是在给自己找一个借口来掩饰自己的不坚定。我想通了，其实这不是一种阻碍，而是一种激发自己的力量和推动力！所以昨天他再次指正我的错误时，我不再生气。而是比自己做的更好，做得正确！我相信我一定能办到。真的谢谢你咯，黄小姐。

这是一个我在练习中学习到的一个道理。

到老爸时间。放假这两个礼拜，都一直在帮老爸的忙。坐着养家活口的大罗里到处奔跑。在罗里上，坐着的只有我跟老爸两个人。他呢，则负责开车，我呢，则负责打瞌睡。（因为没事做。） 但在这段时间里，我发现到认真地会因年龄的增长，而思想变得成熟。在以前，帮老爸工作是为了赚钱。在以前，帮老爸工作是件痛苦的事。在以前，帮老爸工作是因为妈妈叫我去。回想起来还真是不孝。那时都在为了钱烦恼，全都因为一直出去玩最后带来的后果。现在已变得不一样了。老爸都已经要到六十了，真的觉得现在他的工作对他而言真地很吃力。他不只是要维持整个家，还要供我们哥妹俩读书，真的很不简单。 所以现在的想法是多帮他点忙，让他轻松点，别累坏了身体。别人放假我也放假，谁能给我老爸放个假？答案就是我！老爸，照顾好自己，你儿子我会快点读完然后工作帮忙养家的。心酸。。。所以呢，这次帮忙我也都没开口跟他要过钱了。良说的也对，吃到那么大了，也是时候克制对父母要求东西了。相反地，我应该给他们东西才对。孝道是很重要的。

除此之外，我还跟一大班好友去了DESARU海滩玩哦！真的超开心的！而且抓水母也很刺激，还被“触摸”了一下。感觉恐怖跟刺痛，有空可以尝试下，哈哈。

A happy trip from CAMERON.

This wil b the picture that i take in the BOH TEA GARDEN CAFE. There hav a reli great view.

This will be the mountain forest that we go at the 2nd day morning. Hiking is also available too!

Flowers over here is reli big in size n colourful indeed.

During the trip, becos of the heavy rain cos we cant get pass the way. The people there all are waiting the water level to go down then they can pass. The water level is abt a normal person knee height.

Is the cactus is Islam? If not, y it is wearing a songkok? ==

I swear thats the largest lettuce i ever seen in my life! So i buy.

I have my 3 days 2 nights trip my my girl and hers gang. This time our place is CAMERON. Actually i didnt go CAMERON before,so i feel excited when i was doing my preparation. And i dunno the place is on the mountain,smthg like GENTING, so i didnt bring my precious jacket. We spent about 4 hours to reach CAMERON. And as usual we get our bus on BUKIT JALIL bus station at 8.30am. (damn blur on the way,not enough sleep lar) The way to CAMERON is full of winding course, that make our vomit on the half way, even when we r going back. CAMERON is a very special place that driver can ignore ur safety belt, and ur place can b a house that without a fan or air-con but stil wil make u catch cold. haha~ Interesting isn it? Luckily we got a water heater in our condo.

So the 1st night we do is, we BBQ! we prepare a lot of food and bring it to our place. Tat is all plan by the event manager, CRYSTAL! haha. and the gang also la. we hav chicken wing, pork, corn, hot dog,etc. And we facing the most difficult problem when we all ald feeling hungry. We cant get the fire up! OMG! we began our BBQ on 7pm, processing....(3 hours ago)...not success.. Then we call JM s frens come n help. Those experts make the fire up i think without 2 hours. Then we hav our delicious BBQ dinner. The onli expert i stil remember is call JACKY! Thanks for ur help very much. He fetch JM and the rest to go and buy things and fetch us to our condo as well. Even thought we face a lot of difficulties, but we stil enjoy very much. i think i eat about 5 or 6 chicken wings and quite a number of hotdog. Haha. This is the 1st time tat crys bring drinks to me, this little move makes me feel reli touch. haha.

At the 2nd day we spent our day by purchasing the local tour package. The places we go n visits r HIGH MOUNTAIN, BOH TEA FACTORY,FLOWER GARDEN, CACTUS GARDEN, LOCAL FARM, and the STRAWBERRY FARM! The package is included the lunch and dinner. And i know the special technique of the farming system, and a special fruit call"CAMERON APPLE". The plant and the fruit at there is very special. No matter in size of taste is reli nice! And our lead is Mr.KUMAR. He is in charge to explain everything to us and take us go around every where. (thanks for teaching us the real meaning of F1 and the smoker theory) haha. If wanna find a good place to relax urself, i think that wil b a good place. After all the event is over, we hav our champagne in our condo to celebrate the last night in CAMERON.

The last day morning, i m the one who is in charge for the breakfast for all the sleepy piggy. haha. I prepare spaghetti for them as their breakfast. Other than that, they also having mushroom soup, chicken nugget, corns, sandwich and milo. Wat a wonderful breakfast. It is reli delicious indeed! haha. After we finish our breakfast, while i m washing the dishes, the sound of complain come into my ears. haha. Crys kenal marah cos she didnt do anything. U lazy pig. We being inform that we mus check out b4 12. so we pack up all the things and tidy up ourself n room. At the end,we onli realize that we buy too much things and we cant take it. shit! how do we gonna take it home anyway? haiz. jus dump all the bags all togather and carry 1st. When we reach the counter, then the in charge person tell us that our bus is not going up here 2day becos of the number of passenger is very few. Wat a good reason. At the end we take a van back KL. DONT TAKE VAN, U WIL REGRET! Full of pain and uncomfortable.

Conclusion,this is a nice trip! We hav fun and get a lot of knowledge from it. So, where shall we go next time...

WANT & NEED

Things that u NEED,and the things that u WANT.

Recently i went through a lot,but in the end my thought still cant figure this 2 things out clearly.

Actually do we reli think properly b4 we do some decision?

Do i need to give up my dream?

haiz,i reli dunno. Does my dream reli so far away from me?

latest update

Today i finally got a chance t update my blog. Actually recently i m been working in the pc fair. the whole day jus onli thinking abt working,working and working. N all my brain jus about money. Haiz~money had earn, but...my leg kenal d! Omg~becos of the overload of my leg cos my leg rosk d == and I continue getting the usher work some more, make the situation go worse. I think it is a very goo sign for me to stop. On the way back from PWTV to WANGSA is the LONGEST TRAIN EVER! Now the only way is rest at home n give up my job. == money money~sorry sorry...

Eventhought thats the bad things happen, BUT! The good things also happen at the same time also. Haha~ that is.....

MY NEW BAG!

i BUY IT ON PCFAIR ON THE PRICE OF RM99 ONLI!

I LOVE IT VERY MUCH...

Luckily i got it. Cos the original price is RM 229!

Thats the coolest things i had.

tired betul!

This time i wil use the time that i get up early to write my blog. During PC FAIR,i saw a lot of things tat i like. Example like olympus pen, laptop bag, nikon camera n so on. That makes me crazy!!! Omg, this time our work place is at hall 5, is in the second floor, is a place tat i never work b4 in the pc fair. Haiz~is reli a headache if reli wanna earn the commission. == if not in the main kemp, the commission wil b difficult to earn. But i wil try to do my best on it. Today the senior wil come n teach n show me how he gonna drag the sales by using his skills. Lets just wait n see, how good is he wil be. Haha~ Our booth are sharing with Lenovo. Actually the boss, (botak+cermin mata) is very great in promoting their laptop. And m very proud of his skill also.

NOW I M TRYING TO USE BRAIN TO EARN $$$ RATHER THAN STRENGTH. LEARNING...

the precious memory

This is the only photo that included most of our class members in diploma. Is sad to say,we hav been classmate for so long time, this wil b the best pic that we hav. The photo included some people that are not our classmate some more== but they r our frens la. Times goes by when we are busy on our work. Now is the last sem of the diploma d, have a bit sad that the time flies so fast and we stil havent hav the chance to know more abt our frens. Every people hav their own goal and dreams. Some of us wil not study in this college anymore, some of us wil not taking the same course anymore, and some of us wil not continue study anymore. But faith bought us together. i m happy with that, can make frens with u all. ><>

New Blog, New ME!

Actually, i found back my old blog from my frens laptop. I click in, saw everything i wrote b4 in the past. i lost my blog because i format my laptop after insert window 7. And i cant find back my own blog == stupid har? i think so too.... but now, i change my mind. Thats the old me in the past, contain a lot of things i dont wish to c it again. n dont wish to remember again as well. Got a line says that, the thing that u reli wish to forget, u wil remember it well. Especially some unhappy moment or memory. Haiz~i know i m been trying to blog every info from her into my head. She is reli a pain to me. But now, everything is diff. Cos now i find my own way, doing my own things. As her, she is doing hers own things as well. I heard her news from sis. She is reli good n enjoy in hers relationship now. I wish her happy always ^^ And me, i got a beautiful,blur-blur,n a sweet girl for me to take care of now!

PEOPLE NEED GOAL TO GENERATE PASSION TO SURVIVE!

That my goal now.^^ Doing the things that i liked, dote the person that i love. I feel great n warm when she is around me. Haha~ HI,A BRAND NEW ME!